So… I first must acknowledge that I have changed. I’m not the same. Not just the fact I don’t look the same… but not the same within. These last two years, especially, have changed me for the worst… but not my heart or presence of mind… yet it’s these two things I’m fighting for right now. I can’t do this challenge, become fit or be in a position for my parents not to worry if I don’t save my heart and mind from what I’ve been spiritually going through. The energy in this world is heavy and loaded with a hidden pain and suffering that some people are too blind to see or too self-centered to care about. Which I’ve addressed in various way in my spoken word book.
But I do. Through life, career and now with this pandy. It’s my purpose to see and help change what it is I see. But because a lot of people haven’t, we’ve been lead to a place we may not come out of.
A good example is the Food App Delivery systems… “Con”venience as a weapon, not a tool. But portions have been getting bigger, and even though prices has risen… the Food Drug Administering agency has kept a constant steady cycle of sloth, gluttony and addiction in motion until the end.
I’ve been guilty of assimilating to this. Between pre-pandy, inner-child awakenings, and loss of a sense-of-self… I can’t lie that the little 9-year-old me showed up and reminded me she still hasn’t healed from the damage of yesterday.
However, for all the work I’ve done to repair and become the better version of myself… I so easily fell back into this cycle of food and eating because it’s the “Original Sin” imposed on me.
I used to think it was the molestation, but in truth it was the relationship given to me as it relates to food- including the detachment I felt with the people I loved.
There strangely seemed to be a trade-off of the two… but those are stories for other days.
But it wasn’t all bad… my first 5 like I told yall “In the Beginning” I was fed from our home garden, fresh-caught fish, milk still brought to the door from the dairy farmers. Like seriously. Back then my mom worked at the now “barely there” Enviro Protect Agency aka E.P.A., and learned the dangers of such chemical foods and medicines we consume heavily now… but interesting enough, since cable and microwaves (even TV and radio) came online…things have begun to change in the worst of ways even though it appears that life has gotten better.
I don’t know, honestly…I guess it’s all relative. I’ve only been her 40 out of the last 100… but I’ve seen some things that make you question reality… especially since cell phones and internet.
Anyway, I digress.
So since this change has been upon me, and torment, taunting and crucifying me by having me look at ALL and EVERY thing that has happened, who I am what I’ve been through and what I’ve been or done… Like I said previously… I know this is a spiritual test (at least for me) and I’m at a crossroad of truth in my life. But I have the upper hand because I’ve done the work, have the courage and wisdom, and presence of mind and heart
TO WIN!
Okay, okay… back to this challenge…
The 21-day Make-n-Break is laid out to challenge myself to make solid decisions that may be tough, uncomfortable or out of the norm, but is meant to train my mind to ENDURE for my own well-being. The list is reasonable but not in offering a typical, routine day. But that’s what the Make-n-Break is all about. Shifting thought to accelerate ones thinking about how we move and make decisions throughout the day. Now let’s see what I’ll be doing…
- 3-Day Liquid/Smoothie Cleanse each week (Sunday Monday Tuesday)
- Intermittent fasting 12pm-6pm (1500-1700 calorie daily- Eat from farms and co-ops; One week of Chef Ricardo recipes
- Physical activity and/or exercise daily, according to plan, with lovely baths and showers to relax
- Create spoken word motivation to say in the morning and before bed
- 15-min stretch, meditate/prayer with water or tea upon wake and before sleep
- Breathe positivity into each day through positive thoughts and actions
- Use prayer, meditation, mindfulness and breathing exercises throughout the day
- Listen to good, positive, soothing music and messages, ex. Jazz, classical, oldies
- Halt negative emotions, criticism, being opinionated or easily offended.
- Practice self-discipline and self-control with every decision
- Don’t consume negative energy or depression- flex muscle groups with every onset
- Break one bad habit, daily and replace with a good one
- Stop complaining and making excuses
- Get 7-8 hours of sleep daily- NO EXCUSES
- DO NOT HIT SNOOZE BUTTON-GET UP
- Stay on schedule daily; be consistent and deliberate each day
- Plan ahead when necessary, ex. Meals, clothing, appointment, etc
- Send I love you’s and inspirational messages to family- daily
- Show give and be love; spend adequate time with those I love
- Help mom and dad when asked or needed
- Volunteer time to someone/something in need
*MOST IMPORTANTLY…. LOVE MYSELF!
Understanding there are reactionary default programming in our brain when we get triggered by certain things that release those defaults, I know we can literally lose ourselves in a moment- and the days to follow- which can make us feel a little bit (or a lot) like a failure! When we can’t bounce back 100%- even as of now…. Therefore we must forgive ourselves. Realizing that our minds can play a trick on us, lets us know we are vulnerable to these certain “states of being” in terms of space and time AND must be aware and grounded so that we are in our right minds with every decision. That is how hard changing and transforming is- and why a lot of people don’t try or want to do it.
Since I have BIGGGGGEERRRR goals that cause for a lot of coordinating of this puzzle called “my life.” I cry but I don’t fret- it’s been harder and may very well be becoming…But I’m grateful for the challenges. The ability to work and develop my mental muscle. Especially when the biggest lesson is to recognize that this system we live in is designed to play on our reactionary defaults and emotional biases- before we even realize we’ve been played. However, with maturity, trial and error, bumps and bruises and war wounds… we have learned something and know what to do, how to do it and what it takes- IT’S ALL WITHIN- REALLY!…. I say let’s beat the system by no longer consenting to our own defeat. Because whether we live another day, decade or millennia… we have to answer to ourselves this question: Did I do all I could have to truly be free….?
In addition- my plan is to do a weekly vlog or just a podcast that will cover these things; as well let you know the foods, supplements (haven’t even taken my daily, smh) and Chef Ricardo recipes I’ll be using.
I’ll add my exercise plan and schedule, methods of meditation and spoken word affirmations, etc.
Like I said before, part of this is accountability. And that means sticking to the plan of posting, doing the vids or podcasts and showing that I’m truly committed and ready to prepare to take myself and life back.
This is my new job… Working and slaving for my SELF.
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